5+2,6+1,8-1=7,7,7
2007-05-01 7:40 p.m.

its been an awful long time since i last blogged. maybe cos hostel is such a bore that i dont bother. but i have been reading blogs. blogs of special friends. its quite disturbing how fake blogs can be. a friend told me, people blog with a target audience in mind. you tell stories phrased in a way that makes you out to be some1 you want others to think of you as. you tell lies that even you yourself believe in. and it probably isnt a big thing to you. after all its your freedom of expression. but blogs are meant for people to read. and you know that. so why insult others? why deceive others? i really dont see the point in blogging ur anger (with some1) or blogging abt some1 who is not you. you obviously want to get to some1. you can deny it but you're still guilty. dont tell me that youre just expressing your own views. that others can choose not to read ur blog. but the fact that you know others do read your blog and that you know who these others are alr shapes the way you blog. yes, i hope you guys read this and be aware of it. quit using blogs to make others feel for you or view you differently. just be sincere for once.

people change. I've changed. i know it. do you? i agree that people are complex beings who may have more than 1 sides. but that doesnt give you the reason/ excuse to be two-sided. i mean its natural to act differently with different people. For example, you cant talk back to ur tchers or parents the way you do to ur peers or siblings. you cant act like a poser to a grp of nerds or like a joker to serious people. but what you CAN do is NOT ACT AT ALL. i used to try to fit in.. i used to be what my frens are. but it got really tiring and hypocritical. and i couldnt breathe. well im happy to say i grew out of it. i found myself, some1 who's not socially despised. why.. friends are indicators to what a person you are. if you're not getting em. stop trying the way you are right now. i mean why try when the harder you try the harder you fail. you could just stop being a two-sided freak and maybe people will like you better. i dont think you've changed? i just think you've mask your real self. im disappointed.. after all you used to be so proud of not conforming to your surrounding peers. now you're just plain disgustingly fake. how can you not practise what you preach. or have you become too desperate huh?

just wake up.

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